My Story

Well, in the end I'm still wondering,
Why me?
Why can't I just be with people I've known for so long time?
Why can't I just be in places that I knew?
All those faces are just like blur visions, keep haunting me and pushes me to tearing, time after time.

My only mistake is just because I'm not sincere enough to let go.
That I'm not really happy with what I have.
and that I see the path that I must walk as a burden, not a meant

Deep within, frozen and cruel, I'm feeling lonely.
Rotten in all these crowds.



Sungailiat

Today together with a friend, I opened up a cache of FS.
I saw these faces from my past, and suddenly, this pain feels so sharp in the heart of mine.
So, here it is, my first posting of many more will follow.
I can't deny that those things happened 3 years ago still left so many heartbreaks inside of me.
I was breakdown.
thousand days from the time, I survived but a half.
I left my half world and soul along with very first people that I claimed as bestfriends.
We were young, wild and irresponsible.
Yet, those are memories I would kept inside, only for myself.
Deepest secret story I would reveal only with the man I choose, someday...


Misery would always be misery.
All I can do now is struggling...



Pangkalpinang.